Drew looks at me. I fake a smile so he won't see. That I want and I'm needing. Everything that we should be. I'll bet she's beautiful. That girl he talks about. And she's got everything that I have to live without. Drew talks to me. I laugh cos' it's so damn funny. But I can't even see anyone when he's with me. He says he's so in love. He's finally got it right. I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night. He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar. The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star. He's the song in the car I keep singing. Don't know why I do. Drew walks by me. Can't he tell that I can't breathe? And there he goes. So perfectly. The kind of flawless I wish I could be. She better hold him tight, give him all her love. Look into those beautiful eyes, and know she's lucky cos' he's the reason for the teardrops of my guitar. The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star. He's the song in the car, I keep singing. Don't know why I do. So I drive home alone. As I turn off the lights, I'll put his picture down and maybe get some sleep at night. He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar. The only one who's got enough for me to break my heart. He's the song in the car, I keep singing. Don't know why I do. He's the time taken up. Cos' there's never enough. And he's all that I need to fall into. Drew looks at me. I fake a smile so he won't see...

What can I say? I saw it coming. I should have prepared for it. God knows why I haven't. What you saw ytd, just before the rock concert.. Just forget it okay. I couldn't help it. It was so embarrassing how people kept coming up to me, asking if I was okay. Honestly, does it look I am? I don't mean to be harsh. I know you guys were just trying to help. But.. I dunno okay. I dunno anything anymore. Sometimes, people expect me to have a certain type of reaction. Look, guys, I've cried so many times. What do you want from me? I woke up at 7 this morning. I kept thinking about it. And I cried twice in the same hour. What more do you want? I am so tired of not being able to let go. You guys deserve your happiness. I'm not stopping you. What's the point of wondering what happens to me anyway? You guys love each other. I can see that too. Don't think about me cos' there's no point. Even if I am bitter about this, nothing will happen. You guys are my friends. I want you to be happy. I just don't understand some things. Have you ever loved someone so much that no matter what they do to you, you can't hate them? You can't even stay mad at them and whatever they do, you still love them with all your heart? You find yourself not being able to let go and you're not wholeheartedly trying only because, you are willing to take that risk, whatever the situation. Cos' if not, you won't understand me. Even if you have, you might not anyway. Cos' I'm sure it's a different situation. My story is a different story one from you. Today's Halloween. I am scared alright. I am scared of what I've become. Weak and lost. I need my friends right now. And I can't say how grateful I am to those who have been here for me.