It's been in the past for a while. I get a flash and I smile. Am I crazy? Still miss you baby. It was real. It was right. But it burns. You have to survive. All that's left is all these ashes. Where does the love go? I don't know. Now that it's all said and done. How could I be losing you forever? After all the time we spent together. I have to know why I had to lose you. Now, you just become like everything I'll never find again. At the bottom of the ocean.

I'm not sure exactly what I want from life right now. I mean I want to pass probation and all my friendships to be like awesome (and they are :D). But like, I mean I'm not sure what I exactly want right at this moment. I have no idea what to say. And I convinced my sister to help me choreograph my PA Showcase dance. :D And apart from trying to handle students and cope with everything that's being thrown my way, I am actually okay. LOL. I mean, I haven't tried anything drastic but I think you get what I mean. I'm not breaking down or anything. This is like everyday life now. I can't imagine going back to how life was before. I dunno why. It just seems so different? Although things were so much easier then. In every way. Well, life is always filled with challenges. Cos' if there are no problems, life is boring. I mean, I don't want problems. It would be good to have everything I wanted but like, if you did have all that, what do you have to work for? Your life falls apart but just remember that no matter what, it's always going to be alright. :)