It's complicated. It always is. That's just the way it goes. Cos' it's like I waited so long for this. I wonder if it shows. Head under water. Now I can't breathe. It never felt so good. Cos' I can feel it coming over me. I wouldn't stop it if I could. When love takes over, yes. You know you can't deny. When love takes over, cos' something's here tonight. A new reason. I gotta know. Do you feel it too? Can't you see me here on overload? And this time, I blame you. Looking out for you to hold my hand. It feels like I could fall. Now love me right like I know you can. We could lose it all.

Today could have gone a lot differently. In some ways, I haven't felt this happy in such a long time. But some other parts of me are really upset. So many things are going on right now. I don't know where to begin. I still don't know what I want. I mean, I do want things. But like my sister said, I don't want them bad enough. That's why I'm not giving my all. You know what? I dunno what I really really want. There's only one thing that I'm absolutely certain about and I'm afraid that one might be a mistake. Might. I dunno where to put my priorities cos' of it. And report card day is next week... I hope I get straight As. I want it so bad. It seems hard but I really hope I get it. I studied hard this time. Okay, fine. Only at the last minute. Like the day before the test. Or worse for some. Like the hour before. But still. I studied. Which is more than I can say about last year. But the syllabus for Year 7 is a lot easier. Oh well. Bytheway, I finished watching Gossip Girl. Probably gonna wait till' next week for the next episode to come out. And those of you going overseas, you're very lucky. Don't rub it in that I have to go to school while you're enjoying yourself in another country. LOL. Oh wells. Nothing to say now. Byeee.